Am i really tired?? ;-)

As the day passes and as darkness engulfs,

I lie upon my cozy bed and ask myself – How do I feel??

Fit and enduring as ever, says my gray matter,

Contemplating and Evasive, retorted my inner goddess with her eyes darker,

I ponder over the above two, lost for a clue,

For I know both of them are not true,

‘Don’t over think, you are tired’ snaps my inner self,

Realization dawns upon me and I laugh to myself.

Obviously, am tired…

Am tired by slogging over my futile academics,

Programming and networking make me sick.

Am tired of masking myself, speaking words of honey,

Lest it should bother somebody.

Am tired of smiling when my kith and kin keep me at bay,

Overlooking my feelings and emotions in every way.

Am worn out by pushing myself to meet everyone’s expectations,

Drowning myself into the sea of self frustration.

Deep down my heart, as I pen down my thoughts,

I silently sob, since my individuality is robbed.

As I constantly strive to create a niche,

I ask myself..

When will I get to light my own wick???